My hands are shaking
‘cause I’m so close to breaking down.
But I won’t let that happen.
I choose to be numb.
So, nervousness go away. I don’t need you right now.
My heart’s thumping so loud
‘cause I can’t believe I disappointed myself once again.
But I won’t entertain that idea anymore.
I won’t dwell in self-pity.
No, not now.
My chest hurts
‘cause my heart’s thumping so loud.
But I’m disregarding the feeling.
I know I can swallow this.
I’m chasing my breath; it hurts.
My throat’s dry.
‘cause I feel like wanting to cry.
But I won’t give way to tears.
I won’t let my voice break.
So, fuck off.