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Monday, 23 January 2012

Idealist Much?

I drive you crazy and you do the same.

I should stop blaming other people for my mishaps. Not that I’m blaming them right now… It’s just that whenever something unfortunate happens, sometimes others are automatically dragged into the problem.

If I didn’t want to do something with all my heart, but did it anyway then it didn’t turn out good, I guess I’ve no one to blame but myself. If it didn’t turn out good kasi maraming epal or maraming obstacles at pakalat-kalat mga kontrabida, then I still couldn’t blame them! They’re just doing their part on making my life miserable. I think in the end, it’s still my fault that I wasn’t able to do my best to overcome these things and do the task assigned. I only have myself to blame. No one else. Haaay.

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I’ve been here before. One day I’ll wake up and it won’t hurt anymore.

I’m caught up in this web of mediocrity. Whatever twist or turn I make, I’m still stuck. Seems like there’s no way out. Maybe I haven’t made that life-changing pivot yet… something that would really save me and help me get out of this trap.

These strings leave me paralyze. I usually end up looking at the horizon and thinking about what I’m capable of doing once outside of my boundaries. I’m done staying on the safe side and experiencing life half-baked.

Tangenuh, wait for it.

So this is goodbye.

Monday, 9 January 2012

20 Ways to Get Good Karma

Instructions for Life by The Dalai Lama

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R’s:
- Respect for self,
- Respect for others and
- Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great relationship.

7. When you realize you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It is a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. If you want others to be happy, practice compassion.

20. If you want to be happy, practice compassion.


GV! GV! GV! GV! ♥

Sunday, 8 January 2012

Wrong Impression

When I was in elementary, I was once yelled at by my teacher in front of the whole class because she thought I was making faces. And this was my favourite teacher, by the way. She was reprimanding us about something when she noticed me rolling my eyes, smirking, etc. But as far as I know, I wasn’t. I was just being my usual self. I don’t know what I was thinking then but I don’t think I was actually listening to what she was saying. I was probably making weird/insulting faces because of whatever was in my mind that time. It usually wanders on its own. So anyway, another instructor told my mom that when she was lecturing, I kept on rolling my eyes and it irritated her. She didn’t scold me in front of the class but I was still surprised when I learned about it. I wasn’t really doing anything wrong. If I was really rolling my eyes, well, I wasn’t conscious about it.

I don’t know what’s about me that give people the wrong impression. I hate to break it to you guys but I’m not maldita, suplada, masungit, or anything of that sort. I’m actually a very nice person deep inside. Hehe. I’m sure you’d love me if you got to know me. And I’m not saying these things out of conceit or being too much self-absorbed.

I just hate it when I learn from other people that so and so didn’t like me because I was too unapproachable. Girl, did you even try to approach me in the first place? Yeah, there’s that. I’m just “too quiet, it’s scary sometimes,” but I’m actually really nice. Believe me. I could come up with a lot of pleasant things to say for you to like me. Just keep in mind though that everything that would come out of my mouth is in its most sincere form. No bullshit.


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The past has its rude way of getting back into our lives repeatedly. They would remain with us forever even though we don’t want them in our lives anymore. Why? Katamad. Will elaborate next time.