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Saturday, 26 October 2013

Now We're Three!


Three years 1 month 4 days and counting! <3 Soooo much love for and from this man. Thank you so much for spicing up my life! ;) Mahal na mahal na mahal kita! :* :*

Friday, 11 October 2013

Mum

I love my mom.

I caught myself wishing I got her traits, character, personality, attitude... You know what I mean. I know I got most of who I am from my dad. Which isn't entirely a bad thing. I just hate how I overreact and get mad easily. And I know sa kanya ko yun "namana." From my dad.

So anyway. My mom's a great person. And I'm sure I'm not just saying this because she's my mother. All of my friends know that and they always say so upon meeting her. She has a pure heart and she loves us so much even if we, her kids, are somehow turning out to be evil. Kidding. But really. I admire how she could always keep up with us no matter how many times we fail her. She is always on and will take our side even if we don't even know which side we're on. Right or wrong, whatever. Did that even make sense?

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that my mom has always been here for us through the good and bad times. (Even if sometimes she has no idea what's going on. Hehe.) Personally speaking, even if I was already giving up on myself she still has my back. She's just always present. In a good way, of course. I've been a huge disappointment and I caused her a lot of problems but I never ever felt like she hated me. I never ever doubted her love for us because it overwhelms us. It has no limit, really.

She's that great. And I love her so much for that. I'm blessed with many things but she's probably the greatest blessing of all... I mean, she is. And it's such an honor to grow up with her, under her guidance, with all her love and protection. I didn't know this when I was younger, but right now I'm really really proud that I'm her daughter. And nothing could ever change that.

I hope someday I could also make my Mama proud the way I am so very much proud of her.


Wednesday, 4 September 2013

September Update

For lack of better things to do (or anything to do), I'm blogging again. Sort of. Or ranting again... although there's really not much to rant about. Because even if it seems like I'm missing a lot of things right now, I can genuinely say that I am very happy and contented with what I have. And with what we will be having in the near future. :) :)

I can't say I deserve all the blessings that are coming my way. I'm surrounded with very lovely people who only say and do good things to me and with me. I can't help but be thankful. I am very thankful. I am overwhelmed with great joy and love that I can only sit back, smile, and be grateful to God. Super. I am closer to Him now more than ever.

My worries that I shared in my past posts were just that. Worries. I just wasted time worrying, torturing myself by expecting the worst things that could happen but never actually did. Whew. Although there's really some sense in expecting the worst, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I shouldn't have wasted my time with the negativity. Everything is turning out to be okay anyway. The people who love us really love us and are supporting us in every step we're taking. I should have trusted them more then.

Well, the number one person I trust the most and have a lot of faith in right now is Ken. My first boyfriend (and probably the last, duh). My counterpart. My greatest love, the love of my life... And in addition to those titles, now he's the father of the child I'm carrying inside me. I wouldn't be in this position without him. And I really don't wanna be in this current situation if it's not with him.

I love him so very much. We love each other so much that we already have to share this overwhelming love with someone else. I guess that's why baby happened. Hihi. :))

Sometimes I still can't believe we're gonna be parents already. I know it's a big responsibility. I can't say I'm ready for this na. I just have to. God decided that now is the right time and we have to be okay with that. Well, actually I'm more than okay. I am blessed. And I'm really excited. I feel honored. Now it's up to me to prove myself to the world... to the people who look down on me... who love me... to my little miracle... and also to myself.

I know I can do this. I'm in this.

Wednesday, 5 June 2013

Breathing For Two

There I said it. Cat's out of the bag anyway. Now there's confusion. And misunderstanding. But I have a lot of faith in us and I know that we'll be able to overcome all these obstacles. The misunderstanding isn't between us anyway. Haaayy.

You have to be broken to be whole. God bless us.

Wednesday, 22 May 2013

I Hate To See Your Hearts Break.



When you’re about to reveal something that you know will disappoint people, you don’t say it immediately. You spend days (even weeks) thinking of the right words to say. Words that will make the revelation sting less and will spare them from all the pain that you’re about to cause them. At least that’s what you’re praying for.

But no matter how hard you try, you can’t really protect people’s feelings. Especially if you’re trying to protect them from something you did. The best you can do is tell them the truth directly, take everything they lash onto you, and accept the cruel consequences that will arise from whatever you did.

Of course it ain’t easy. Breaking people’s hearts is never easy. What you think is right for you is often hurtful towards others. At the end of the day, though, it’s still your life and it’s you alone that would feel all the unhappiness that’s about to come. But of course things aren’t always one sided. For every hurt, there’s always a blessing on the flip side.

And I’m definitely sure that this situation I’m in right now will make me happy in the long run. Without a doubt. Tiis tiis lang muna. 

Monday, 13 May 2013

Ugh.


When you’re keeping something inside you, eventually it will consume you. It will keep on building up until no amount of self-preservation can handle it. Until you can’t breathe properly anymore and you feel like every air you take is a stinging sensation; a constant reminder of the immensity of whatever it is you’re keeping.

Secrets. Lies. Promises. Whatever. It’s just so unhealthy to hold it inside all together and have no one you could really pour your heart out to.

It burns.

Again I find myself in a situation where only God can help me. (I think.) So I’m filling up His mailbox with tons of letters that basically say the same thing: that everything will work out fine in the near future (and for the rest of my damn future.)

God help me/us.

Thursday, 7 February 2013

Sad. Beautiful. Tragic.



Taylor Swift is a slut. Uhm. Maybe… She may be a slut if we based it on how many boyfriends she’d have and how frequently she jumps from one guy to another. Now, I won’t bother defending her nor getting myself in her shoes trying to understand her. It’s pointless and lame. I don’t like her that much anyway right now.

So why hell is she in this blog AGAIN?

Duh. I like her songs. There’s no doubt about that. I like her voice, I think she sings nice and pretty. Haha. Parang teenager lang. Oh, well. She makes me feel like a teenager. And I can really relate to most of her songs. And that’s also exactly why most young girls like her and her songs. And I guess that’s makes me typical (feeling) teenager too. Lol.

So Taylor Swift has not so recently released her 3rd album RED. And I'm listening to it right now and almost every day of my life. I listen to it in the office, I listen to it at home, and I kinda of sing her songs in my head when I can. They’re so catchy, it’s crazy. They just stay in your mind no matter how hard you try to replace them with another song. However, this replacement song also happens to be sung by Taylor Swift. Kidding. Adik lang.

The point of this post is actually to enumerate the songs I love in this new album. I’m kind of self-centred like that. My purpose isn’t to help anyone with what they should listen to in this album. I just really want to show off. Yeah. Whatever.

So here it goes. My List of Favourite Songs in Taylor Swift’s RED. In no particular order. Some includes my favourite lines in each song. Hihi.

1. State of Grace
            - We are alone with our changing minds. We fall in love ‘til it hurts or bleeds or fades in time.
            - Now all we know is don’t let go.
            - This love is brave and wild.
            - This is a state of grace. This is the worthwhile fight. Love is a ruthless game unless you play it good and right.

2. Red
            - Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there’s no right answer.
            - Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes. Tell myself it’s time now, gonna let go.
            - But moving on from him is impossible when I still see it all in my head.

3. Treacherous
            - I’d be smart to ways away, but you’re quicksand.
            - All we are is skin and bone, trained to get along.
            - Forever going with the flow, but you’re friction.
            -  Nothing safe is worth the drive.

4. I Knew You Were Trouble
                        ++ Check out Walk off the Earth’s version HERE. It’s probably better than this. They’re so cool and entertaining!

5. Holy Ground
6. The Lucky One

7. Everything Has Changed feat. Ed Sheeran
            - Come back and tell me why I’m feeling like I’ve missed you all this time.
            - Meet me there tonight, let me know that it’s not all in my mind.

8. Begin Again

*****

I’m not sure but it’s not that the other songs are crappy. I just don’t enjoy listening to them. 

Update lang.


February 6, 2013

Hey! Apparently, some people are still sort of interested in my life so I kinda feel the need to update this irrelevant blog. And I know I should, from time to time. The thing is I don’t know what to write or to share with strangers. Fuck, I'm boring.

But since I have the time and I currently don’t have access to the internet, I guess I might as well type anything that my mind formulates. (Assuming my mind formulates something…)

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So. It’s Wednesday and I’m stuck at home watching movies, reading stuff, stomping my feet and nodding my head to cool music, taking naps from time to time, and eating everything I can. In short, I’m sick since yesterday so I didn’t have to go to work today. Which is fun. Yay! Seriously…

So let’s talk about my so-called job… I love earning money. I love it that I'm earning some cash without actually using my head. I kinda like the office environment and I think I get along with the people there somehow. I wasn’t really expected to think and I kinda like that, too. At least no one would disagree with me and with how I deal with things. There’s no challenge, there’s not much expectations (I guess), and I got to play dress up every day. Though no one actually notices and there’s no one there to impress.

I wasn’t being sarcastic. Weh. My job’s so simple. I just have to follow orders and do what the superiors want me to do. However… I feel incompetent. Nakakabobo. I just sit there doing boring stuff. It’s… Boring. I feel like I’m just wasting my time and I’m not enjoying it. Duh. But I don’t have the right to complain right now since I haven’t graduated yet and it’s sort of a blessing that I’m able to work despite that.

Tiis tiis din. Yun lang.