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Wednesday, 22 May 2013

I Hate To See Your Hearts Break.



When you’re about to reveal something that you know will disappoint people, you don’t say it immediately. You spend days (even weeks) thinking of the right words to say. Words that will make the revelation sting less and will spare them from all the pain that you’re about to cause them. At least that’s what you’re praying for.

But no matter how hard you try, you can’t really protect people’s feelings. Especially if you’re trying to protect them from something you did. The best you can do is tell them the truth directly, take everything they lash onto you, and accept the cruel consequences that will arise from whatever you did.

Of course it ain’t easy. Breaking people’s hearts is never easy. What you think is right for you is often hurtful towards others. At the end of the day, though, it’s still your life and it’s you alone that would feel all the unhappiness that’s about to come. But of course things aren’t always one sided. For every hurt, there’s always a blessing on the flip side.

And I’m definitely sure that this situation I’m in right now will make me happy in the long run. Without a doubt. Tiis tiis lang muna. 

Monday, 13 May 2013

Ugh.


When you’re keeping something inside you, eventually it will consume you. It will keep on building up until no amount of self-preservation can handle it. Until you can’t breathe properly anymore and you feel like every air you take is a stinging sensation; a constant reminder of the immensity of whatever it is you’re keeping.

Secrets. Lies. Promises. Whatever. It’s just so unhealthy to hold it inside all together and have no one you could really pour your heart out to.

It burns.

Again I find myself in a situation where only God can help me. (I think.) So I’m filling up His mailbox with tons of letters that basically say the same thing: that everything will work out fine in the near future (and for the rest of my damn future.)

God help me/us.