Wednesday, 4 September 2013

September Update

For lack of better things to do (or anything to do), I'm blogging again. Sort of. Or ranting again... although there's really not much to rant about. Because even if it seems like I'm missing a lot of things right now, I can genuinely say that I am very happy and contented with what I have. And with what we will be having in the near future. :) :)

I can't say I deserve all the blessings that are coming my way. I'm surrounded with very lovely people who only say and do good things to me and with me. I can't help but be thankful. I am very thankful. I am overwhelmed with great joy and love that I can only sit back, smile, and be grateful to God. Super. I am closer to Him now more than ever.

My worries that I shared in my past posts were just that. Worries. I just wasted time worrying, torturing myself by expecting the worst things that could happen but never actually did. Whew. Although there's really some sense in expecting the worst, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I shouldn't have wasted my time with the negativity. Everything is turning out to be okay anyway. The people who love us really love us and are supporting us in every step we're taking. I should have trusted them more then.

Well, the number one person I trust the most and have a lot of faith in right now is Ken. My first boyfriend (and probably the last, duh). My counterpart. My greatest love, the love of my life... And in addition to those titles, now he's the father of the child I'm carrying inside me. I wouldn't be in this position without him. And I really don't wanna be in this current situation if it's not with him.

I love him so very much. We love each other so much that we already have to share this overwhelming love with someone else. I guess that's why baby happened. Hihi. :))

Sometimes I still can't believe we're gonna be parents already. I know it's a big responsibility. I can't say I'm ready for this na. I just have to. God decided that now is the right time and we have to be okay with that. Well, actually I'm more than okay. I am blessed. And I'm really excited. I feel honored. Now it's up to me to prove myself to the world... to the people who look down on me... who love me... to my little miracle... and also to myself.

I know I can do this. I'm in this.

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